So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains
And we never even know we have the key. - Lyrics from Already Gone, The Eagles
Over the years of the evolution of my spiritual growth I have had huge insights and incredible growth in so many ways. But there have been other areas where I have only seen brief glimpses of the habits and behaviors that are getting in the way of my joy. These visions have been brief and kind of blurry. But, with each glimpse I am able to see a little more clearly what stands in my way. However, I have either not been willing to see it fully or the timing wasn’t right for me to change some of these behaviors or habits.
Tony Robbins call these behaviors or habits --life rituals. A ritual is defined as“a series of actions or type of behavior regularly and invariably followed by someone”. That’s what I have! Some of these rituals are good and some not so good. And it’s not just “one” thing -- one behavior. It is the series of actions that keeps it so engrained. The habit is reinforced with the arrangement of the behaviors - a cluster of habits.
A couple of nights ago I had the opportunity to get a bigger glimpse of a tired old ritual that I keep repeating. A wise friend pointed out to me that I have to stop looking for the answers outside of myself. She said “The solution is in you! You can’t buy the solution!” (Book, courses, classes, teachers etc.) At that moment I had the clarity that at other times seemed so blurry. This was it, a piece of my own puzzle--a ritual that I kept repeating that is not serving me. Always seeking the next book, teacher, tool, etc. to help solve some “problem”. Hoping that I would hear just the right words that would wake me up and connect all the dots and I would live forever in a blissed out state! Who am I kidding!
Over the past 20 years I have read, explored, experienced, visited, attended, listened to thoughts and ideas from all areas of metaphysics, self-help, motivational, quantum physics, law of attraction, and spiritual teachings and teachers. I can quote many of them as easily as I can say my own name. This was my journey--I am a seeker. And this journey has enlightened me and expanded my consciousness exponentially. But at some point it is time to take the knowledge and use it! What I suddenly realized (with the help of my friends) is that to keep seeking is a mis-guided search for an answer to heal what I perceived as broken. The missing link, the “golden ring”, the one insight that would set me free.
The truth--I am already free! I just didn’t allow myself to see it. The answer to all my questions, the solutions to all my “problems”, the harmony and peace I seek are already in side of me. Honestly, I already knew this, but I wasn’t ready to hear it. It’s like when you hear something that you have heard a hundred times before, but suddenly you hear it like you haven’t heard it before. This was the time for me to hear this big truth.
Time to set aside the seeking and take a look inside. Allow the answers to my big questions to unfold naturally. I have all the tools I need. As a matter of fact, I have a big tool box filled with years and years of accumulated wisdom and awesome techniques to draw from any time I choose. Not to mention, my own internal guidance system that I was born with!
Today, I am clearing my desk of the stack of books I have been waiting to read, deleting from my email the 21 Day Program I joined to learn more about EFT, putting away my list of goals and things to do. Today, I am taking time to be still and get re-acquainted with my own brilliance. It is going to take some time, but it begins in the silence of not doing, but just being.
Sometimes the longest journey is the one from the intellect (the brain) to the heart (our connection to source). A big THANK YOU to my Mastermind group for helping me find the way to my heart!
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